Asa Rend

October 15th

A day that I never thought I would be noticing.
Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.

Actually the entire month of October is set aside to remember all the babies that we have lost either ones who have never breathed earthly air or those who stayed on earth but a short time.

This day I am sitting on the beach hearing the sound of the ocean. I have spent the weekend with 5 other women. The majority of us have experienced pregnancy loss. It is a common thing and one that is almost a taboo topic. Most women suffer and grieve in silence. It is something that one never truly forgets. A mother who has lost a baby will always remember how old their child would be. For me, Asa would be 2 years and 8 months. I have talked to women who have told me that their children would be in their 40's. A mother never forgets. Ever.

So today and every day I remember our Asa Rend Trautman. Even though he never took an earthly breath he turned our world upside down for the better. God used his life to change mine completely and bring to a place where I truly discovered how to find JOY in the Lord. It is a journey I am still on. Some days are hard and I struggle to find the JOY in anything or anyone. Other days I am praising the Lord and so filled with JOY that I cannot help but praise Him. It is all part of the journey.

For me, every day I will remember Asa and think of JOY. I will remember the name that God gave me before he was even more and how God brought me from brokenness to healing through the short time I had to carry Asa.

Today I remember all the babies and their sweet mommas. I am praying for you all as you all honor your little ones today.




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  1. Sarah RamirezOctober 15, 2017 at 6:33 PM

    Oh, Mrs. Kimberly,
    I just want to give you a hug for all of the hurt your sweet heart has known.
    You are such a strong, kind, godly woman. I'm sure the Lord is using you to help other women heal also.

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