A Little Catch Up and a Lot of Frustration
Do you ever have those times in your life where you are so sure of the way you think the Lord is leading you and you think He is just going to fling open the doors for everything to fall into place? Then, he doesn't. Yeah, those times lead to a choice. A choice to wait on the Lord and learn the lessons He wants you to learn in the waiting with joy and thanksgiving or to dwell on the negatives and get frustrated. Well, this week I have been impatient. I thought we were going to sell the house the first week and be on our way to greater things. Well, that is not what the Lord has planned for us. It seems that He has some lessons for us to learn in the waiting period, I think mainly for me. Is anyone else a person that has to learn lessons the hard way? There has to be someone else out there like that.
I think He is trying to teach me about how important prayer is. I am having to go to him in prayer multiple times a day when the impatience and frustration arises in my heart. Prayers of confession and for strength to be content and patient. I still truly believe that Operation: Asa Joy is from the Lord. I still believe that this is what He wants for our family. I think He is trying to teach us to wait for the timing that is not better but the best. He has a plan for our best and He is teaching us that what we think is the best is nothing compared to what He knows is best for our family. I think we are just being tested and tried to see if we will truly follow Him or let the discouragement and frustration that comes from Satan win over the choice for JOY.
It is a conscience effort every day, multiple times a day, to choose JOY and to let my family and children see this. It is hard but I know that through this waiting time, I am learning so much. I am learning complete dependence on Him for everything. I have done a lot of confessing lately as I have been discouraged and overwhelmed until I remember that God gave us this vision and plan. It is for His glory and honor that we want to do this. He is going to work it all out but the way He knows will bring the most glory and honor to Him. He is drawing me to Him in so many ways. I have been studying Psalm 103 lately and I have seen it everywhere. In multiple books I am reading I have seen this Psalm quoted. It is like God is trying to make me see that He is in control and that He is still working, even though we cannot see it right now.
Yes, I am still praying for the house to sell and to sell soon but most of all I pray it would sell right when the Lord wants it to. I am praying for His will to be done and for everything to work out so there is no doubt that He is at work and all glory and honor goes to Him. I pray for the exact family to move in. He is working and moving in our family. This time has revealed more things that all of us still need to work on. He is moving in our family to draw us closer together but at the same time Satan is working to pull us apart. Please pray for us as we endeavor to fix some broken relationships with God's direction and guidance and strength. Pray for me as I work on my communication with my wonderful husband who is very patient with me. I recently gave my testimony at our ladies night and I was asked for anything they could pray with me for. I told them to pray the entire book of Philippians. That is so true. It is such a rich book and I need to read it more. The entire book is my prayer. It overwhelms me when I think of sharing one verse with you all because I would end up copying the whole book here. I will end this section with Philippians 1:27 and 2:5.
Whatever happens, conduct yourself in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ.
Your attitude should be the same as that as Jesus Christ.
Now for the catch up in my gratitude list.
11/3/14 - For my sweet Alex who has grown so much and I can see a heart for you under all his tough guy act. He has been so great about the surgery even though I know it is something that he dreads.
I think He is trying to teach me about how important prayer is. I am having to go to him in prayer multiple times a day when the impatience and frustration arises in my heart. Prayers of confession and for strength to be content and patient. I still truly believe that Operation: Asa Joy is from the Lord. I still believe that this is what He wants for our family. I think He is trying to teach us to wait for the timing that is not better but the best. He has a plan for our best and He is teaching us that what we think is the best is nothing compared to what He knows is best for our family. I think we are just being tested and tried to see if we will truly follow Him or let the discouragement and frustration that comes from Satan win over the choice for JOY.
It is a conscience effort every day, multiple times a day, to choose JOY and to let my family and children see this. It is hard but I know that through this waiting time, I am learning so much. I am learning complete dependence on Him for everything. I have done a lot of confessing lately as I have been discouraged and overwhelmed until I remember that God gave us this vision and plan. It is for His glory and honor that we want to do this. He is going to work it all out but the way He knows will bring the most glory and honor to Him. He is drawing me to Him in so many ways. I have been studying Psalm 103 lately and I have seen it everywhere. In multiple books I am reading I have seen this Psalm quoted. It is like God is trying to make me see that He is in control and that He is still working, even though we cannot see it right now.
Yes, I am still praying for the house to sell and to sell soon but most of all I pray it would sell right when the Lord wants it to. I am praying for His will to be done and for everything to work out so there is no doubt that He is at work and all glory and honor goes to Him. I pray for the exact family to move in. He is working and moving in our family. This time has revealed more things that all of us still need to work on. He is moving in our family to draw us closer together but at the same time Satan is working to pull us apart. Please pray for us as we endeavor to fix some broken relationships with God's direction and guidance and strength. Pray for me as I work on my communication with my wonderful husband who is very patient with me. I recently gave my testimony at our ladies night and I was asked for anything they could pray with me for. I told them to pray the entire book of Philippians. That is so true. It is such a rich book and I need to read it more. The entire book is my prayer. It overwhelms me when I think of sharing one verse with you all because I would end up copying the whole book here. I will end this section with Philippians 1:27 and 2:5.
Whatever happens, conduct yourself in a manner worthy of the gospel of Christ.
Your attitude should be the same as that as Jesus Christ.
Now for the catch up in my gratitude list.
11/3/14 - For my sweet Alex who has grown so much and I can see a heart for you under all his tough guy act. He has been so great about the surgery even though I know it is something that he dreads.
"Now, our God, we give you thanks, and praise your glorious name.
1 Chronicles 29:13
11/4/14 - For sweet fellowship with ladies who love the Lord. They are most forgiving when you have a head ache and are not quite yourself. I love being able to share prayer requests and to pray for them too. I love seeing open Bibles and open hearts around my children. I am so glad there are other ladies that Esther and Tirzah can look to for examples of godly women.
We always thank God for all of you, mentioning you in our prayers.
1 Thessalonians 1:2
11/5/14 - For song and music. It soothes my soul just when I need it. For me, singing is a prayer and a time of worship. My kids always tease me for singing all the time but it is one of the major ways I communicate with God. I thank Him for Christian artists and musicians that have written music that I can worship to. Some I am listening to recently are Lindsay McCaul, Merideth Andrews, Audrey Assad, Rend Collective, and the Newsboys (because I love my boys).
Sing to the LORD with thanksgiving; make music to our God on the harp.
Psalm 147:7
It feels good to be caught up. Hopefully I can keep this up for 30 days (or even beyond that). I hope each one of you are counting to this month. Let's focus on the forgotten holiday of Thanksgiving.
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